This past Monday, one of our biggest fears started to materialize when we saw that Michelle’s daily CBC showed 8% blast cells in her peripheral blood. A feeling of disbelief came over me. Could this really be happening merely 10 days after her last bag of chemo? Our doctor told us to wait a few more days before getting too scared. Tuesday – 0%. Good. Maybe the Monday CBC was just a fluke. Wednesday – 1%. Okay, so maybe we’re just dealing with some random floating blast cells. Nothing another round of chemo couldn’t fix. Thursday – 6%. Friday – 12%. Shit.
Looking back on the past week, I guess I had naively blocked out the implications of what blast cells really meant for us. I sort of carried on hoping we could do more chemo. But on Friday, Michelle and I had an all too sobering and surreal meeting with our oncologist Dr. Johnson. Simply put, Michelle’s cancer had proven to be chemo-resistant. This was no more apparent than after this past round of chemo. It’d be one thing if Michelle had reached remission and her blasts didn’t show up for another few months. That’d at least give us time to do some more chemo and get ready for another transplant. But after 10 total rounds of chemo since 2007 and after two relapses, you have to start facing what your body is telling you after your cancer comes back within 10 days.
I asked him what else, if anything, he could offer us? All he could do was prescribe Hydrea/ Hydroxyurea – a drug that just interferes with the growth of cancer cells. Basically, a way to extend Michelle’s life for a little bit longer. Not a cure.
And then Michelle asked him how long he thought she had even with Hydrea. I saw Dr. Johnson hesitate. Of course, this was not a question he truly wanted to answer. Not only is it difficult for doctors to predict anyone’s fate but no doctor wants to tell their 27-year old patient how much more time they have to live. Reluctantly, he answered his best guess: 4-6 weeks. When I heard him utter the word “weeks,” a cold feeling came over my body. I started panicking inside…tears flowing down my face. Weeks? I would’ve bet anything he was going to say months. Michelle looks so good…so healthy. It doesn’t make any sense.
I don’t know how you’re supposed to feel or process that type of news, and I guess you’re never really prepared for something like this. The best way I can describe it as is a scene from a movie. I glanced over at Michelle and then at Dr. Johnson and then turned back to Michelle – tears now running down her face.
Without exchanging words, Michelle and I were on the same page. I asked Dr. Johnson if he would support us if we explored Eastern treatment and he agreed. Despite traditional Western medicine failing, we knew we could still turn to Eastern medicine for one last shot. So now, our plan is to commit even more time and energy to our Vietnamese herbalist. Up to this point, we had only asked him to complement Michelle’s western treatments. Now, we would ask him to help cure her.
Tomorrow, we are going to make a few calls to other hospitals to make sure we are not missing anything else in terms of Western treatments. I hope we find something intriguing, but realistically, I don’t think we’ll learn about anything compelling enough for us to want to break down Michelle’s body more and risk putting her in a state where even our Vietnamese doctor can’t help. We feel lucky that Michelle is even out of the hospital after this last round of chemo. In fact, Dr. Johnson was afraid she would never get out and that she would be in hospital for months as that had been his experience with other patients going through the same thing.
So how do you know when to stop fighting? That’s the question that’s been running through my mind the past 64 hours. I understand though that I can’t answer that question for Michelle. If it was up to me, she would keep fighting until she had nothing left. But that’s because I’m afraid of being left here without her by my side. My heart aches when I think about the void and emptiness I would experience. I just don’t want my life to be drastically and forever altered.
For now though, I am relieved that Michelle is not ready to give up. She’s realistic about the future but still holds out hope that a miracle can happen. From a selfish perspective, that’s all I can ask for.
Before Michelle went to bed, I asked her if there was any message she wanted conveyed in this post. She just wants everyone to know that she’s doing well. And that she’s okay.
She’s mentioned several times this weekend a sense of relief. I can only guess that’s how one feels after fighting for one’s life and going through this for so long. Whereas everyone around her can escape, Michelle can’t. She goes to sleep every night with anxiety over the cancer inside her body. And she wakes up every morning realizing this long nightmare continues.
This past Friday was my birthday and Michelle had already planned a joint birthday celebration for her best friend Mabel, our good friend Eric, and me. Michelle didn’t want to let this news drag us down so she pushed us to still go out and celebrate our birthdays. She even came out. I can’t remember the last time Michelle’s been out to a bar. She said f it. The theme was “I heart the 90’s.”
75 responses so far ↓
1 SP // Jun 29, 2009 at 6:26 am
Sorry to hear about this. Believe, miracles do happen…
2 Pavan // Jun 29, 2009 at 6:37 am
Incredible strength and courage to write this post! Praying for a miracle for Michelle and you!
Pavan
3 HM // Jun 29, 2009 at 7:00 am
I love you guys.
And all of you look like you fell out of an episode of “Saved by the Bell.” Well done.
4 Grace // Jun 29, 2009 at 7:06 am
My heart grew heavy as I read the words on this latest post. I can’t imagine what you’re all going through. But Michelle continues to show her strength and resolve by going out and having fun. She truly is an inspiration.
5 Abby // Jun 29, 2009 at 8:49 am
We’re praying for you.
6 -Stacey // Jun 29, 2009 at 10:25 am
I am so sorry to hear this news. I have been following your blog since I saw a link to it from Erica Murray’s website. I hope that Eastern medicine gives Michelle the relief and cure she needs right now. You are both in my prayers and thoughts…
7 Lany // Jun 29, 2009 at 10:43 am
I am sorry to hear the news but Eastern Medicine can do remarkable things so believe. Nice picture too!
8 Johnmichael // Jun 29, 2009 at 10:51 am
Miracles can and do happen. Stay strong, you have an entire group of strong people backing you up.
9 Andrea Song // Jun 29, 2009 at 12:06 pm
I am been following this story and I am so sorry to hear this. Please do not lose hope as there are options OUT THERE! I have read various cancer surviver books & stories with alternative medicine. Please continue to fight this from ALL AVENUES and pick up the following books ASAP. “Recovery from Cancer” by fellow cancer surviver Elaine Nussbaum, “Outsmart your Cancer” by Tanya Harter Pierce and “Cancer-Free: Your Guide to Gentle, Non-toxic Healing” by Bill Henderson. Within those books, Macrobiotic diet, enemas, certain types of cancer fighting diets are all emphasized. Remember, information is what you make of it. My prayers are with you.
10 kim // Jun 29, 2009 at 12:34 pm
michelle,
i’ve been following your story for the longest time and it’s heartbreaking to read about your recent relapse. i don’t think one ever stops fighting if the person still holds on to the hope that miracles do happen and can happen.
you’re a beautiful, courageous and inspirational person and i’m praying and will continue to pray for your miracle.
11 John // Jun 29, 2009 at 12:37 pm
My heart goes out to you Van, and of course to you Michelle. “Fighting” does not always mean with drugs, treatments, and protocols; sometimes it’s a matter of the heart. I wish you strength and courage to “fight” on.
12 AMP // Jun 29, 2009 at 12:46 pm
The Eastern medicine has definitely had an effect on your spirits. =) I’m praying for you. Love you.
13 jpg // Jun 29, 2009 at 12:48 pm
if you ever want to talk- too painful, too painful , too painful, I still feel it everyday.
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14 June // Jun 29, 2009 at 1:17 pm
I’m with everyone who says that miracles happen. I believe, I truly do.
15 Young // Jun 29, 2009 at 1:31 pm
let’s keep taking this day by day, minute by minute. bummed to hear this news, but curious to know more about these eastern practices. want to watch ice age or bruno soon? meeks really likes ice age for some reason.
16 Molasses Minds // Jun 29, 2009 at 1:44 pm
My heart just sank into my stomach and tears keep running down my face. There is nothing I can say except, I believe in miracles and I think you do too. There is nothing that says you two are not the next ones up for a miracle. I am keeping my fingers crossed and holding my breath for you. Your courage,love for each other, and love for each other are absolutely amazing. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Keep the faith and BELIEVE…
17 Shannon // Jun 29, 2009 at 2:29 pm
Eastern medicine can often do what western medicine can’t. I’m glad you guys didn’t skip a beat and asked Dr. Johnson to support you through the Eastern approach. 4-6 weeks, I don’t believe it. You were able to move out of Hotel Kaiser and Dr. Johnson didn’t think that would happen so quickly either. Do not give up!!! We all believe in you!
18 Alice // Jun 29, 2009 at 3:01 pm
Thoughts of miracles are being sent your way.
19 Robin // Jun 29, 2009 at 3:05 pm
Michelle, my husband started a blog when he was diagnosed with NHL in Jan. 2008. He has a link to your site because of how you inspired him. He died in December. Like you, he was Asian and held multiple bone marrow drives trying to find a donor, again, because of you. You and Van have touched our lives more than words can express. I know you’re scared, but remain hopeful. Do what is right for you and the rest will fall into place. God bless.
20 Ide Viriya // Jun 29, 2009 at 3:46 pm
I believe in Miracles.
=D
Love,
Ide
21 Anonymous // Jun 29, 2009 at 3:46 pm
My heart was so heavy as I read this news. I’m praying for you both and hoping for a miracle.
22 Pim // Jun 29, 2009 at 3:56 pm
Miracles do happen. You guys are in our thoughts and prayers daily. There’s gotta be Eastern Meds out there that are as strong as you are, girl. Keep fighting – we’re here with you every step of the way.
Love always,
Pim & Gary
23 Ki Kim // Jun 29, 2009 at 4:06 pm
I’m a huge fan of Eastern Medicine – always helps me deal with all kinds of things. I pray that it will bring Michelle relief as well.
24 Brad Curry // Jun 29, 2009 at 4:14 pm
I’m hoping for the absolute best, stay positive!
25 Grace // Jun 29, 2009 at 6:06 pm
Michelle and Van, I don’t know if you know Jesus, but He can heal anything if you ask Him and believe that He can. I and many others are praying for you guys. Miracles CAN happen! <3
26 Danny // Jun 29, 2009 at 6:19 pm
Hi Michelle, I read the post and just got ripped up inside. I pray for the best and please fight the fight. Your strength is inspirational to a lot of us.
27 Glenna // Jun 29, 2009 at 6:29 pm
Thinking of you, and sending you as much positive energy your way as possible.
28 Ann Gregory // Jun 29, 2009 at 6:33 pm
Chris and I are here for you if you need anything. Keep fighting and take it one day at a time. If you need contacts at MDA, email or call us.
29 Helen // Jun 29, 2009 at 7:19 pm
Even at a time like this, you continue to only think of others. You are by far the most qualified for a miracle. So I believe if it’s going to happen, it will definitely start with you.
As many have said, just take it day by day. I’ll visit the shrine for you tomorrow here in Japan.
30 sumit // Jun 29, 2009 at 8:12 pm
i don’t know you but definitely feel your pain. may god be with both of you.
31 Sarah in Pittsburgh // Jun 29, 2009 at 9:28 pm
My every wish to you, your family, and your friends for healing.
32 huy // Jun 29, 2009 at 9:37 pm
Michelle and Van, I love you both.
We’re all crying for you.
I don’t know what to say
33 Charles in LA // Jun 29, 2009 at 10:41 pm
I’m very saddened to hear what has happened. It reminded me of my mom when I read this last post. But, when there’s a will, there’s a way. Just fight till you can fight no more. Hopefully you have also tried different types of experimental, non-FDA approved drugs. That may be another option. I hope to best for you, your family, and friends.
34 Christina // Jun 29, 2009 at 10:48 pm
My heart sank when I read this post. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. You are incredibly strong and have the best support system. You also rocked the 90s overalls and baby tee better than anyone else could have.
35 A Fan // Jun 29, 2009 at 11:02 pm
Be strong. Please look into Ayurvedic medicine too (ancient Indian system of medicine).
36 Diem Ly // Jun 29, 2009 at 11:20 pm
you guys are amazing
37 Michelle // Jun 29, 2009 at 11:36 pm
I’ve been following your blog for quite some time. The latest news left me heartbroken. I am glad you are going to continue with Eastern treatment and I know this will help you a great deal. I came across a wonderful quote: “Believe it is possible to solve your problem. Tremendous things happen to the believer. So believe the answer will come. It will.” You have a fighting spirit and a strong mindset. You, Van, Marshawn, your family and friends are in our thoughts and prayers.
38 Naomi // Jun 30, 2009 at 12:40 am
Michelle and Van,
My heart goes out to you though I’ve never met you. You’re incredible, beautiful and genuine. Thanks for giving your blog readers an example to live by. I wish you renewed health.
39 Jenny // Jun 30, 2009 at 1:02 am
Michelle and Van,
I can only imagine what you and your family are feeling right now. I will keep you in my prayers. You guys are awesome.
40 n/a // Jun 30, 2009 at 1:02 am
Michelle,
We have not met but I am one of the many people who quietly follow your blog. Every time I finish reading one of yours or Van’s posts I find myself staring at my computer screen and just thinking what an amazing person you are (& Van too!). Please know that there are literally hundreds if not thousands of people praying for you and sending you a constant flow of positive energy. If anyone can beat this it’s you. Stay strong.
41 Patrick Tam // Jun 30, 2009 at 5:35 am
Hey man,
Not sure if you remember me – Carolyn’s brother, we chatted almost a year ago about doing drives.
Anyway, Be strong and Believe. Everything happens for a good reason.
I would love to chat with you if you feel like chatting with someone with similar experience. Let me know.
Stay focus, stay strong.
PT
42 Asia Blume // Jun 30, 2009 at 9:13 am
Hey guys, hang in there. We’re all thinking about you!
43 christine // Jun 30, 2009 at 9:16 am
i’m so sorry, van/michelle. I wish there was something I could do.
44 Shirley // Jun 30, 2009 at 10:41 am
Michelle and Van, you are both in my thoughts.
45 leang ly // Jun 30, 2009 at 12:17 pm
just wanted you guys to know that i’m praying for you guys. stay strong and keep fighting.
46 Lijen // Jun 30, 2009 at 12:40 pm
Keep fighting Michelle. Good things happen to good people, and I can’t think of a single person that is better and stronger than you are.
47 michelle woo // Jun 30, 2009 at 1:25 pm
Stay strong, Michelle. We’re all rooting for you.
FYI, an article a friend just sent me: http://www.reuters.com/article/topNews/idUSTRE55R1Q320090629#
48 Jenny // Jun 30, 2009 at 1:42 pm
I don’t know what to say at a time like this. But I do know that if you’ve mustered up the courage and strength to overcome all the challenges life has brought you thus far, you have the courage to get through anything else that may come your way. God bless.
49 christy // Jun 30, 2009 at 2:01 pm
Michelle, Van, I will continue to pray for you guys. Miracles DO happen and you both deserve it so very much! Keep fighting! We’re all behind you!
50 carollai // Jun 30, 2009 at 3:29 pm
i believe in miracles. and will keep praying for one.
51 Miyon // Jun 30, 2009 at 4:20 pm
Hi Michelle here’s one more person thinking about you right now. x
52 Clarita // Jun 30, 2009 at 4:46 pm
I am praying for you Michelle just like I am praying for my own daughter.
53 Richard // Jun 30, 2009 at 4:59 pm
Massive doses of vitamin C, administered intravenously as sodium ascorbate, has been demonstrated to kill cancer cells. Dr. Mark Levine at the National Institutes of Health is a leading researcher on vitamin C and its effect on cancer. Here is a link to his web site: http://www2.niddk.nih.gov/NIDDKLabs/IntramuralFaculty/LevineMark.htm. Also, here is a link to a treatment center and an article about vitamin C and cancer: http://www.brightspot.org/cresearch/ivccancerpt.shtml. Some books on the topic are Cancer: Nutrition and Survival by Steve Hickey and Hilary Roberts, The Cancer Breakthrough by Hickey and Roberts, and Vitamin C: The Real Story, the Remarkable and Controversial Healing Factor by Hickey and Andrew W. Saul. Please look into this.
54 Suzanne Brazau // Jun 30, 2009 at 5:18 pm
Michelle, Please HEAR what I have to say.My son Alex was diagnosed with AML, he went through 7 rounds of chemo, and then a BMT. Through his broviac, he caught an infection, went to ICU and had 0 WBC, he had fluid in his lungs which the doctors were saying would lead to pneomonia, his chances were very similar to your chances. I dreamed that night that I was inside of his body and I healed him, my son Alex the next day sat in a chair and starting talking with me. How you ask, A MIRACLE. Easy to say when you are not in the situation, but I was there all along and was watching my 19yr old son, flirt with death and miraculously LIVED!!! This happened this past December, Believe and fight with your mind! I live in Montreal and I will go to Saint Joseph’s Oratory( a world-wide known synagog)tomorrow and light candles and write a prayer for you and leave it with Brother Andre, who has the power to heal. I did that for my son Alex, and I believe that was part of Alex’s cure. Don’t give up Don’t give up Don’t Give up!!!!!! LOve Suzanne XXXX
55 Mark // Jun 30, 2009 at 9:32 pm
Hi Michelle–
I’ve been following for a while, and am really saddened by this latest post. You are in my prayers! Stay strong and continue being brave.
56 Michelle // Jun 30, 2009 at 10:15 pm
After posting last night, I realized one thing I forgot to mention. You may want to look into seeking treatment at Loma Linda University Medical Center or City of Hope (both in CA). Both are exceptional facilities in the treatment of cancer. City of Hope has an AML research team. Keep up your fighting spirit!
57 Janice // Jul 1, 2009 at 12:14 am
“be the change you want to see…” yes these were Gandhi’s words about changing the world, but it’s really about changing ourselves. Be life. Be health. Be love. Be happiness. Van and Michelle, this is for you both. I’m not crying because I know this isn’t the end. No Michael Jackson tribute songs for you, unless you dress up like him and dance =) I hope these posts give you a small idea of the inspiration you have provided to and the impact you have had on so many people. And I hope our energy gives you energy. It will be done. You are in my thoughts every day. <3 you. jc
58 Erin // Jul 1, 2009 at 1:38 am
57 comments already, and I’m sure there are more messages of love making their way towards you right now. I wish you the strength to continue, the best of luck, and all the happiness in this world and beyond. You have made a difference in many people’s lives, and you will continue, no matter what. Thank you for everything.
59 Viva // Jul 1, 2009 at 5:20 am
Michelle & Van,
I’ve been in and out of the hospital since April 09 because I have AML too. I haven’t had a chance to read much of your journal. I am not sure the type of chemo/transplant you went through. I am currently on the AML clinical trial where the hematologist used higher dosage of chemo to blast off leukemia cells then stem cell transplant afterward (-5%). The trial is currently on phase 2 and fairly new with FDA approved. Maybe this might help you too.
A friend of mine, her Dad was diagnosed with brain cancer. His doctor told him that he might get to live 2-3 months. Instead he lived 3 years longer. That was decades ago.
So please don’t ever give up hope and keep on fighting! We both are in our 20s, we have a whole life in front of us! Best of luck!
60 A fan // Jul 1, 2009 at 7:27 am
Dear Michelle,
I have been following your story but have not posted a comment before. I hope you know how much you have inspired others by your grace and will to live. Our thoughts are prayers are with all of you. Your wonderful spirit and the love that surrounds you will help you make all the right decisions.
61 HB // Jul 1, 2009 at 8:08 am
Michelle and Van..I know you will come out of this..I will go the the temple here in NJ and ask God to take this horrible disease away. You have a whole life to live and grow old with Van. Please hang in there and don’t give up hope. You can do it..I know you can..am another of your anonymous fans. Sending lots of love and healing thoughts your way.
62 Andrea // Jul 1, 2009 at 1:47 pm
Michelle,
I just wanted to add that since your blood type is AB, soy foods (especially fermented) are beneficial for killing certain types of cancer cells. This isn’t the case with everyone or for other blood types. This information is from “Eat Right for your (blood) Type” by Dr. Peter Adamo, a lifestyle I am currently experimenting with. According to the book, blood type A and AB have the highest rate of cancers than other blood types, and various foods, supplements and lifestyle can be engendered to prevent the susceptibility. I know there’s a lot of information out there about what can or cannot help…and its all very confusing. However, Information = Power. And I hope something will help. Fermented soy can be found in tofu, miso soups. from high quality japanese stores. I also encourage you to look into macrobiotic diet.
63 Julie // Jul 1, 2009 at 4:37 pm
Like many others, I’ve been a long time lurker of this blog since volunteering at a drive here in WA that some of your fellow Bears organized. I lost a dear friend, Glory Hom, to leuk almost two years ago and your battle hit close to home. While it’s true that Glory fought tooth and nail until the very end, what remains with me still today is not that battle but that she always seemed at peace with her decisions, her life. I hope that you find peace and that your mind can will your body to be strong. Miracles do happen – as long as you are at peace, everything else will fall in place.
64 Sadie // Jul 1, 2009 at 8:49 pm
I think the answer is that you don’t stop fighting. You fight and fight until you don’t think you can fight any longer and then somehow, you find the strength to fight some more.
You never know what each day will bring. Some will bring horrible news. Like Monday. Some will bring awesome 90’s parties. And some… those really great ones will bring new medical advances and treatments. Imagine the first person to receive chemotherapy. What if they had stopped fighting the day before? So keep fighting and keep living and keep praying and keep exploring and remember that improvements are coming, new treatments are coming and a cure is coming. So keep going Michelle, until they are yours.
You can do this. You can keep fighting and all of your many fans and supporters will hold you in our hearts and send you strength to keep going, keep living and keep fighting.
You got this girlfriend. EFF CANCER!!
Thinking of you always.
<3 Sadie
65 Mike // Jul 1, 2009 at 9:42 pm
in my prayers. never lose hope.
66 Pomp // Jul 2, 2009 at 12:33 am
Michelle, my faith is in you. I can’t tell you how much your bravery and accomplishments have meant to me. My dad had died of cancer so I am familiar with some of the chemo treatment hell you are going through. Don’t focus on the amount of “estimated” time the doctor had given you because he may have triggered emotions in you that may affect your body negatively. I see strength in your character and actions, so I believe you can find other positive ways, medical or spiritual, that will push you through this. I know you haven’t seen or heard from us, but all of us kids from the temple are with you and are standing behind you during this time. Van, I know you don’t know me but you’ve done a great job in supporting your woman. Outstanding. And I can only wish that I can be half as honorable as you have been with Michelle.
67 D :) // Jul 2, 2009 at 1:57 am
Dear Michelle and Van
Like so many of your supporters we have never met, but we think about you and have you in our prayers and hearts!
By “we” I mean myself and my husband Mike.
When we look at the both of you what tugs at our hearts the most is that we think “wow that could be us”…ohhh some ten years ago, but still
And we are amazed by your maturity and strength!
We are both registered bone marrow doners thanks to you!
And I think we secretly hoped one of us would be the “one” that would help Michelle but hopefully one day our efforts will come to fruition!
We wish we could do more!
We will continue to pray and hope for a miracle!
Hawaii HEARTS Michelle!
D and Mike
68 Erin Kinch // Jul 2, 2009 at 8:24 am
Thinking of you both today and sending positive energy for the next step in your journey.
69 Ha // Jul 3, 2009 at 9:52 pm
Idk what to say. Wish i can do anything to help…sending +++++ energy your way.
70 A N N A // Jul 4, 2009 at 3:59 pm
Thank you for sharing your story with a stranger. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I’m wishing for a miracle.
71 Russell // Jul 6, 2009 at 1:22 am
Van, Michelle… I can tell you that I am filled with hope for you. Why? Because people give up or they don’t. That was the time when the vast majority of the people on Earth would give up… and you did NO such thing.
Now, while you are looking to holistic medicine, may I please suggest that you have a look at curezone.com? There is an amazing amount of info there, and so many tales of recovery that it is becoming difficult to marginalize. I found out about this in studying the case of a woman who, diagnosed with MS, pronounced incurable, of course, went researching her troubles only to find that her symptoms were that of someone else who had discovered that foods containing Aspartame (Nutrasweet) caused the gradual onset of the symptoms.
She (you guessed it) stopped drinking diet soda and eating yogurt containing it and her incurable MS went away.
Here is a link to a documentary on the woman in question:
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-6551291488524526735&ei=oLNRSrO4HYnSrALE8fTGDg&q=sweet+misery&hl=en
… Don’t give up.
72 Nancy Yu // Jul 9, 2009 at 1:34 am
You’ve always been a source of inspiration to me. You’ve taught me what it means to stay strong and have faith, thank you. So please continue to stay strong and have faith, you’ll be in my prayers.
73 brian // Jul 15, 2009 at 7:35 pm
michelle,
i don’t know you, but i’ve heard through many mutual friends about you and how you’ve made such a positive impact on their lives. i trust that God has a plan and that you are still taking part in it right now- though it’s hard to see- very hard. i hope you know that a lot of people are praying for you and that though it can be easy to give up now- God will never give up on you.
74 not good // Dec 11, 2009 at 2:25 pm
Does not work
75 need stop fighting // Jan 4, 2010 at 4:44 pm
need help
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